Excited Again

April 21, 2017       23:04 I'm finally at week 36. I'm not term, but I'm excited because I no longer have to be frightened if the baby comes. Up until this week, I was in constant fear that each contraction meant I would go into labor and have a baby that I knew didn't have proper lung development. Although he's not "fully cooked" he has baked just enough for my doctor to give me her blessing for delivery. Everything is going great. I may not be able to get around like I'd like or carry my toddler around, but life is good. Staying home from work also did wonders. With some rest, I've been able to get a control of those crazy contractions that made it difficult to do anything. I'm not contraction-free  by any means, but the knowledge that Asher and myself will be fine is freeing. This wasn't the case 3 weeks ago when things got bad. The only "bad" thing I could cite is the reality check I received at my last doctor's appoint...

April 2, 2017              12:02 It's been quite a week. Since the beginning of my third trimester I've become more aware that D-day is coming soon. I look forward to the birth of Asher. I look forward to the process of labor and the possibility of having the experience that was cut short a few years ago. I'm sure things will be different given the many roadblocks: gestational diabetes->starting medication-> high risk label-> earlier date of induction.  I'm still optimistic, but this week we encountered another element; premature contractions. Whether you call them Braxton Hicks or contractions without dilation, they are scary when they are early and without prompting. I've tried to grow accustomed to discomfort since the emergency room visit in my first or second trimester. However, over the last week I've become more uncomfortable and unable to move around like I would like because of cramping. On Thursday...