Excited Again

11/1/16         20:36 My sister in law will be induced tonight.  I am beyond exited. First, because I can't wait to see my new niece and second because I love labor. Yes... I love labor.  Labor is work and like  work it can be hard, exhausting,  and depleting. However,  just like work, it can also be rewarding,  positive, and purposeful. They say you get amnesia during the subsequent pregnancies, so bear with me. My possibly skewed view of birth is that it was the greatest test of teamwork in my family ,  it allowed me to focus on God like never before,  and it showed me humility in ways that I cannot explain. My extended family's consensus is that trying for another med-free birth is nonsensical.  Without saying my decision, I will say that there is nothing more retrospectively beautiful than the process and work of labor. You basically turn animalistic and reach into depths that otherwise would not happen unless you are really sick or being  tortured.  Conversely,  you are w

October 18, 2016    19:33 I'm on night float now and it's such a task.  I am worn out and so tired.  I was told that everyone feels that way on night float. That sounds reasonable,  but the pregnancy is also bringing me shortness of breath and back pain.  I have lugging around a rolling suitcase to protect my back.  It was definitely helpful when doing regular walking, but the stairs have been relentless.  I'm going to buy a smaller rolling bag to try to get the best of both worlds.  The positive note is that some things are improving.  My nausea had lifted for the most part.  Weird smells and gross things still make me gag, but I've been able to withstand the day without the burden of unprovoked nausea. I'm also able to complete the majority of my work.  Some things are not ideal, but I'm not completely behind. All in all,  I'm blessed and fortunate to still stand.  I have so much to be thankful for in the midst of the hardships.