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Mind Numbing

October 13, 2016      07:48

I've felt miserable since returning to work.  It's not that I dislike my job, but that I'm exhausted. When on vacation last week,  I slept in most days,  relaxed,  and had refuge in place if I felt nauseated or tired. While at work,  I am struggling because I don't have those luxuries.  Ironically,  I've been able to nap at least 20 minutes a day between patients and classes. The naps are great in the moment,  probably help me get through the day,  but don't carry me through the entire day. By the 2 last patients, I'm beat and doing my best to give them the care I'd give my earlier patients.  Luckily,  despite my fatigue,  I still feel engaged and motivated to work.  I remember that my fatigue was so severe the third trimester with Felicity that even that went along the wayside and I knew it was time to leave.  The fatigue I have now makes it hard for me to do much of anything when I get home.  Showers are amazing and my bed now feels like a comfy sinking pit. I feel as if I can't move and lack the energy to get out of the bed. I described my fatigue as "mind numbing." My brain is burned out from trying to figure out this feeling.  Moreover,  the nausea is a constant reminder that not only am I tired,  but I better sleep unless I  want to feel miserable. Like my pregnancy with Felicity,  sleep is my refuge when I'm not feeling well.  My issue is that I wish I could sleep more.  My hours have been longer to accommodate the week I missed last week and will next week.  With the symptoms aside,  I'm excited to be pregnant and look forward to our journey ahead. 

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